Hi all,

While it was wonderful to restart the newsletter least week, I have to admit that I still want to hide. I feel embarrassed. My life isn’t exactly perfect. (Spoiler alert: I’m a perfectionist to some degree.) 

I feel embarrassed because I haven’t just picked something and stuck with it. I feel embarrassed because things keep changing, and when I share that we’re going to do this and then we do that, it feels like I didn’t follow through. 

I also feel like hiding because I don’t feel like I’m a good person to be around. I’m not cheery all the time. Or rather, I’m not cheery very much at all. I put on a good face for a conversation, but it can be exhausting.

I don’t feel productive. I’m depressed. I don’t even go outside much. 

My partner is also experiencing a lot of personal growth, but it’s been challenging. The lows were lows. 

I’m sharing all this to acknowledge mental health. Undoubtedly, we all will feel some strange emotions as the world opens back up. It’s ok to have feelings. Feel them. COVID is a trauma that we all will carry with us through our entire life, like the Great Depression did for everyone who was alive during it. We know the kids are going to be different. We have to acknowledge that we are different. 

All of this is to say that I am trepidatious about “catching up” with people. People I care about. I’m embarrassed. I go silent. 

Talking about it publically, to the whole world, via this post is much easier for me than an individual conversation. Maybe it’s because I think that the other person might pick up on the fact that things aren’t perfect, and I’d have to explain myself. Or maybe I feel that the last year I haven’t accomplished anything. Stepping away from things as a form of self care is an accomplishment, but my heart doesn’t believe it yet. I’m beginning to acknowledge that this time is valid, as in, a valid use of my time. 

Everything is on purpose. Or, I am exactly where I’m supposed to be. I don’t know what’s coming up, I can’t think much beyond next week. 

What I DO know is that I’d like to start working part time, whether advising, or helping people build their personal websites, or consulting, or coaching startup founders. I look forward to speaking engagements again. 

Thank you for listening. 

BTW - I’m in St. Petersburg, Florida. If you find yourself around here, let me know. 

I really like making websites. I also really like helping people discover and tell their stories, from the professional to the personal. 

This website, that you are viewing right now, has served me for years. Having a website and being “discoverable” is crucial for professional and personal growth. Make it easy for the people who could want to work with you. List out your skills and experiences. Have links to what you’ve done. Put it all in one place, and link to it from all your other profiles. 

What this package includes

• 2 hours of 1:1 time, including talking about what you’ve done and how to describe it. There are many ways to say what you’ve done and what you want to do. I make it more impactful.
• I will make your initial website and show you how to update it. I will also include a custom video walking you through how to edit the site so you always have it as reference. It’s as easy as using PowerPoint. 

What you’ll need to do:

• start listing out your skills, and projects
• find pictures you want to use, otherwise we’ll use pretty open source pictures. There is a lot of strategy to this. 

Ready to get started? 
Email me at emfoukes at gmail dot com. 
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To give a broader update: Much has changed.

Let's see... the past 3 yrs...

• Bought a high-end condo in Jack London Square
• Camped for the first time
• Scaled Model 3 delivery in North America, ran Tesla's war room 
• Elon told me "good job"
• Scaled vehicle deliveries in Europe, living in Amsterdam
• My husband sexually assaulted me and I divorced him
• Went to Burning Man

And then...

• Finalized the terms of my divorce
• Sold the condo in Jack London Square
• Managed material flow development for the Shanghai factory
• Bought a convertible Mazda Miata and drove it along the coast
• Launched inventory control software in California and Shanghai
• Bought 1.6 acres near Groveland, near Yosemite

And then...

• Spent the first 2 months of covid in a van on property near Joshua Tree
• Built tiny houses near Joshua Tree (draft website here)
• Was furloughed
• Joined the B2B energy operations team
• Grandma died, alone, with covid, however she died of old age. Went back to Detroit for a memorial service in July
• My partner had hand surgery in LA
• Shared my story about my ex-husband
• Went on leave

Priorities changed, so I...

• Moved out of the Bay - put all my stuff in a shipping container near Joshua Tree
• Stayed in Phoenix for 2 months
• Got engaged to a wonderful person
• My dog hurt her knees and needed surgery
• Bought a 100+ acre off-grid property, with a house and garage, on a mountain in southern Oregon. 
• Advised social entrepreneurs
• Bought a Ford F-250 to haul building materials and so we could get up our "driveway" during the winter (dirt road climbing 1000ft with 20% inclines)
• Finally feel financially secure  
• I got married
• I quit Tesla

With the new year:

• I made my first angel investment
• Bought a 46’ catamaran in Florida
• Many things on the boat broke, so we’re getting it fixed in St. Pete, FL. 
• Writing a cookbook one recipe at a time.

As I said, things are little different. 

I'm figuring out what's next, but my goal is relaxation and focusing on what matters. With all the change in the world, I’m sharing my story in case it can help anyone. 


What the email used to be:
When I moved to the Bay Area, I didn't know many people so I went to interesting events to meet interesting people. I've been sending out an aggregated list of events in the Bay Area related to clean energy and technology for three years now. It's something I do in my "free time" so sometimes the formatting and notes are quite casual. Hope you enjoy it! 
 Below is my last post from April 12th, 2018:
"I joined Tesla's Leadership Development Program this week. It's a two year rotational program where I'll work on 6-month projects, eventually landing in a role where I can make the most impact to accelerate the world's transition to sustainable energy.  

  
Me outside Tesla's Fremont factory on my second day at Tesla, in 2018. 

It’s a custom 46’ Watercats sailing catamaran. It is 62’ tall and 24.5’ wide. 

We picked it up in Freeport Florida, 3 hours inland from the gulf. It’s already been an adventure. This post is about all the pretty pictures. I’ll write more about the challenges later.

Yes, we’ve seen dolphins. They were swimming all around us. 

We bought 150 acres in southern Oregon, on top of a mountain (technically a butte). We have views in every direction, including Mt. Shasta. 
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• Power is supplied by ground mounted solar and lead acid batteries. The system is from 2009 and it supplies all the power we need. 
• Water is rain catchment
• There is a septic tank, but the flushing toilet uses so much water! We bought a composting toilet and still need to install it. 
• Heating is only by wood fire stove, however the thermal efficiency of the home is tops. Windows face south, and the home is sunk 3 feet into the ground. During the winter the loft can easily reach 90 degrees. We have to keep the window open during the winter. 
• Wi-fi is via a $40/month unlimited data SIM card from Vision mobile. We have it in a great router and our internet is better on this mountain than in Oakland. Zoom calls and streaming are great. 

Our home perfectly frame Mt. Shasta.